confused and all alone

I am very troubled now. A new job again! and this is the 2nd one I had in the past 5 months. I really can’t focus on what I want because I know being a call center agent is not what I want. I have this friend who actually told me about this book ” Veronica Chooses To Die” and it is all about Veronica, who committed suicide and failed and was brought to the mental hospital and was advised by the doctor that she will die in 1 week (? not sure maybe 2). Then in that institution she learned the