Interactiveboiz

Hay…

check this link….
naiyak ako…nami-miss ko rin ang tropa… though there are a lot things that didn’t go well with us. Sobrang na-miss ko sila after I watched the video. Waaahhhh… What happened to them na kaya?

Friendster

I am surfing my friendster… Ha…I miss YFC… I miss my “kids”. The pictures in their Friendster accounts reminded me of my past. Before, I never thought I would leave them because I love them so much. I have been a YFC eversince I was 15 and up until I changed my civil status.

I don’t know if they still miss me, I don’t know if I somehow influenced them to something good. But I do hope they saw something in me at least.

The first picture was the covenant orientation. January 30, 2005. The second one was from the International Leader’s Conference in Subic. For readers, covenant orientation is for YFC who finished the youth camp and they are there to renew their vows t.o God and for us to explain the facets of the organization. The ILC is for youth leaders all over the Philippines and even around the world.

The Art of Forgiveness

Who could have mastered this art more than the Creator? Nothing, I just thought of the instances that God has forgiven me.

Last night as I was singing Hillsong’s “Salvation Is Here”, I was crying and while doing that I was able to compose my first song for Him. I don’t have the title yet, I’ll post it here later.

Back to forgiveness, I thought of the people I’ve hurt in the past and all the people who, in one way or another offended me. I thought of my high schoolmates, then my dad, my mom, my brother, my sister and some of my friends. I want to have this opportunity to say sorry to all of them.

High schoolmates – Sorry if I became so rough, especially during CAT. I have read a lot of Friendster accounts from our batchmates who actually have bitterness to the officers. Well, I know I am one of them. I am sorry, but I guess that was just air in my head.

My dad- a lot of grudges and shouting match between the two of us when I was young. Now that I am starting to build my family now, I understand you. But of course, there are still some things that I don’t understand about you.

My mom- you left us. But then I still love you.

My brother- I’m sorry if there are times that I am so hard at you. You know I just want you to be a God fearing man in the future.

My sister- sorry for offending you sometimes. I love you!

My cat, Tsukasa- sorry if I kick you out of the house often.

Jojo- I’m sorry if I interrupt your storytelling at times. If I am sometimes cold. But I love you and I know you that.

Interactiveboiz- sorry for being so cruel before. hehehe. I hope your bunso already forgave me.

Youth for Christ- sorry for disappointing you and leaving you so early but of course I knwo you are all okay now.

To all the people, you know I love you though sometimes I blow my top.

Hay…it feels good…I just hope they forgive me…

Can’t Let Go

Yesterday at church, it was the 3rd of the series of Heroes. It was about “Da Boy” as Pastor Sonny joked. He was the boy who gave his bread and fish to Jesus so that He can feed the multitude.

It was striking for me. In life there are some things that we can’t let go. Like money, stocks, bond, our sons or daughters etc. Like me, when I have money, it seems so hard for me to let it go. A lot of times I find it hard to give out tithe and I know God is not very happy about it. In Malachi 3:10, He said that we can test Him, we can give our tithes and then He will pour out blessings we can’t contain. I want to let go of what I have so I can receive His blessings. Pastor also said that it depends on whose hands it is, if we give it to God then it will come a long way. A lot of people will be helped, a lot of people will be saved. You, what do you have right now that you can’t let go?

Two ears and One Mouth

We have two ears and one mouth so that we can listen twice as much as we speak…

Maybe I am this type of person.

Before, I am the talker. Talk about myself, what I believe in and what my problems are. But as I mature, I learned more to be on the listener side. It saddens me to know that I have offended a lot of people in my past because of the words I said and my being overly tactless. Imagine, whenever I read my high schoolmates friendsters, I want to cry because they are saying they were hurt during highschool they felt outcast and shamed and I know I am somehow a part of it. And now as I’ve come to realize it I want to say sorry for them. Now I realized that there are lot of people with problems greater than mine and talents greater than mine. (I want to thank my man for this because he taught me to shut up and listen).

My problem now is that, I overly became serious. I have stage fright now (I only had this now!!!). I can’t crack jokes anymore. Maybe I have changed a lot eversince my civil status changed.

But I love myself now, being able to talk to my Creator more than before because I rarely talk to anyone even at work. But maybe I still need a part of my old self.

Can I have two ears and two mouths? (hehehe not literally ha!)

I miss this feeling

I really miss this feeling. You know, when you are happy about work and like what you are doing. The last time I felt this was around 2005 and early 2006 when I was still working for Peoplesupport. It just seems to be too fascinating a feeling because you are always looking forward to a long day of work. My man said it’s natural because I am new to this job so I still have the exccitement factor. But then, this is my 3rd call center this year. Imagine! I had 3 jobs in a year! I felt so unstable.

First company, I transferred from Peoplesupport, I hate it! I don’t like the account, some people and I just feel I belong. Second one, was pretty okay however the company sucks! I love the people, I have friends, but I was earning sooooooooooo little. Imagine being at work more than 10 hours a day then getting only aroun PHP 5,000. Good riddance!

Then here I am, with this company, Asia Pacific account, morning shift, people are the best, trainer is cool ( sorry Pao, but Raine’s funnier hehehe). What more can I ask for, I just want to wait for my first salary but I guess it will be fine because the reason why I signed up for this job first of all is the offer.

Well, I just hope I can stay here as long as I haven’t migrated.

End of Kiwi Culture Training!

It’s fun, enjoyable and fantastic.

That is how i can describe the experience. It is fun to know other culture aside from United States. We had some presentations and a version of Idol. I made another blog for our class. Please have a look at it and have fun as well.

This class is crazy the trainer even more (sorry Raine!). Everyone have their own talents and kalokohan. Wahahaha… I hope I can post the video here pretty soon.

Yesterday we started the product training. Nothing different but of course the first week is more awesome! This is the start of nosebleed training.

This is so Much Fun!

Started training last month for my new work and boy this is great! To give you a brief background, I am having an all new experience. I have been in the industry for 3 years now and this is the first time that I will be working with New Zealanders. I have been used to North American clients and their culture so everything about what I am doing now is different.

I find New Zealand really interesting and the Kiwis (New Zealanders) really warm and not racist at all. I must hand it over to our trainer Raine who is a very very “crazy” person that is why we’re all having a blast. I’ll ask her to email me the training pics so you’ll all know what I am talking about. My co-trainees as well are cool and enthusiastic people so there is never a dull moment.

This really rocks!!!

Brother…

One night, something happened which deeply affected my relationship with my family and made my days more terrible.

You see I love my brother and my sisters. I make sure I look after them because I know I couldn’t count on somebody to do that to them. Maybe I am the more outspoken person in our family and I am the only one who could speak to them regarding growing up and obeying without really scolding. You know, I am not the type of person who easily gets mad or do shouting matches. When I am hurt I just tend to cry, not talk because talking will cause m,e to cry even more. I can say I am a very sensistive person. More so when it deals with my siblings.

That night, someone texted my little brother in his mom’s phone. I read it, with good intentions, to know his interests and to make sure he knows that I am always here for him. Then, unconsciously I deleted it. NO! I didn’t intend to I am just used to deleting messages after I read them when I borrowed my sister’s phone. What he did shocked me, he shouted at me saying ” Parang t**** naman o! ” , then he kicked the wooden wall. I was strucked. I know that my brother is now very hard-headed and I do understand why, it is because of what he is seeing as a child and how he is being treated. But I never thought that he would do that to me! 10 year older than him! I felt so much pain. I couldn’t believe it, for all I know I always make it a point to understand them, much more give them what they want. So hurt, I said I’l just go home. But then his mom confronted me and I just blew my top! I talked to her as calmly as I could but I guess it sounded like I was shouting because she was! And the tears keep rolling down my cheeks! I couldn’t contain it and the only thing I managed to say was ” Masakit yun….”

I was very disappointed. I thought my relationship with him was perfect, reality sometimes sucks. He is changing, not for the good unfortunately. But I am still not losing hope. I love him of course, and I care for him and I just wouldn’t just let evil get him. I know in God’s grace, he will change. Slowly, but surely.

And my brother if you’re reading this, don’t worry I forgive you and I wil continue to pray for you. I love you so much.

(Lats night, I texted my friend, Ibiang, a small group leader from church to look for a small group for my bro and she did. Thanks sis! You know this really means a lot to me. )