Putting My Faith in Christ

My sister, Charm, always text me during Sunday to tell me what topic they had at church and how our dear pastors there interpreted and explained it. Then she will text me some verses. This has been going on since I moved here in Rizal because I now rarely go to church or go to a different church, it is not that the church I go to now is not Christian but I just really miss my home church. So she opened up like this. ” te, ang ganda ng topic ngayon, it’s for the people who think they have faith but really don’t”. I replied “ouch! that hurts!” Then she said, “ouch talaga!”

So it was all about us being Christian but sometimes we don’t know that we’re putting our faith in our faith and not to Jesus Christ. That we tend to just hear what we want to hear from church than listen to the true and sound doctrine. Well, yeah, I think it really got me. LIke now, I rarely go to church because I miss the feeling of being in VCF Alabang. Which I know is bad. Hmmm… What else? Then she told me about God revealing to us things yet we don’t obey. Ouch! And then we are just claiming His promises but really we’re not putting any effort to it. Yeah… Like what are those I ask her. Then she told me, ” I know you know what those are. It’s really up to you to discern.” Then I came to realize a lot of things. Some petty things actually in my point of view but I am not doing anything about because I didn’t thuink God really cares for all of that. But then I suddenly remembered that God is really after our everything. He wants us as living sacrifice! ( Romans 12:1-2) So it means I really have to surrender everything to Him. Not just my prayer time, my family life but everything. As I come to think of it, God made a lot of promises to me, showed me how I can get them but still I didn’t do it. Then I prayed and here are what He told me.

He promised me I will have a child. – but I have PCOS, my OB told me I need to lose weight or it will really be hard for me to conceive. So what’s in it? I never tried to get rid of my addiction to wrong food ( which is by the way can be considered idolatry because I can’t stop it), never tried to exercise or do anything to make my womb “conceivable”. As my good friend Ganns, always joke in his blog, “our body is the temple of the Holy Sprit not the Mall of Asia”. And my doctor also told me that I really need to prepare before I get pregnant because with the weight I have right now, there’s a high risk for me to have high blood pressure when I labor.
I will be rich (or at least will be able to live a comfortable life)- but sometimes I forget to tithe. HOw can he pour out the blessings when I don’t sow sparingly? In Malachi 3:10, he promised He will pour out blessings so much we won’t have enough room for it but he has a condition, give your first 10 percent. Well, I am failing in that so that answers my question.
I will live a peaceful life- but I always indulge in chatting and whining about things that are not what He wants to hear. in 2 Timothy 2:16 it said , “Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly.” and 2 timothy 2:14 “Warn them before God against quarreling about words; it is of no value, and only ruins those who listen.” Most of the time I do this, to be honest, talk about things that are of no value, whine about my job, talk about Errol (my colleague), or anyone at that.
So these are just some of the things that I do which I didn’t realize is hindering God from using me. Of course, I understand that God wants to bless me but with these attitudes why would He take the risk. If He makes me rich now that I am not in the proper mindset it might ruin me right? I though about it, I prayed about it and He told me:

Hebrews 12:2
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

It is really great to feel that God is talking to you. Well, throughout my life, I have wandered and wasted a great deal of my time and life yet He always call me not letting me go. Now I just have to grab my Bible and talk to Him again He might have some more revelations.