Embraced By God
July 24,2009- we went to the 25th anniversary celebration of Victory Christian Fellowship in Araneta and boy, God was sure present there. I was with Charmaine, my sister (please post the pics!) and we had a blast! Also, I was very happy to see my friends in VCF Alabang growing in their faith with God. Yeah! You are so good!
July 25,2009- went to Dad’s place in Laguna because I was hoping to look at some apartments there where we could move and to also see my grandmother. I would really want to talk to her or just see her. See, she is 84, papansin na… Hehehe…I know s
he misses me, though I know when she sees me, she will just insult me and stuff. Hahaha…But what a Christian should do? Of course, just shrug it off! I felt convicted throughout the years that I became a Christian that I should show everyone that I have changed, that God changed me. One way of doing that is mustering to be patient with my old grandma.
Rewind 2001. I was really a rebel. I was thinking, I was a rebel for a cause, I want to tell them I have every rights to live as I please it and they have to shut their mouth up about me. I shout at them (at her), I drink, I curse. Name it, I’ve done it (pwera lang drugs promise!). But as God slowly touch my heart, I begin to realize that I wasn’t really reblling for a cause, I was just ruining my life and showing people they were right about me.
Fast forward, 2009. Got married to a great man, getting strong in God, I realized that I need to be really patient. It’s not enough that I could recite Bible verses and evangelize to other people when my family, my own family, see me differently. I couldn’t be impatient anymore, I couldn’t be not understanding , most of all I couldn’t be disrespectful. I felt God is working in my heart. As I feel that I have this daunting task of witnessing to the people close to me to break the curse in our clan. I know it will never be easy because we were raised not to show our emotions, to be always angry and doubtful with each other. But you see, someone has to start. And I know that God is putting that burden in my heart.
I am happy, that I know “GOD is ahead of me touching people’s heart” (from Ptr Michael VCF-QC.) And I know that as I let God heal me, touch me, and make me forgive others, He is also doing that to the rest of my family. And in time, I will be ready to witness to them and will be able to show them how God radically changed my heart towards His.
Know any Homebased jobs?
This past few days I felt sop restless. Though I have a wonderful job, I know that this is really not me. But God is telling me to stay put so I am. When I applied to this job, I told Him I’d stay here until he tells me to move on. But it’s really hard to control the freak inside me, always thinking that I couldn’t do this, or hoping to justify that God has better things for me. But I know that God wants me to stay here. With my husband and me seeing each other only for 2 or 3 hours a day, it really makes me think twice about this job.
When I was young I never really imagined myself being a housewife. But now that I am already a wife, I am really looking forward to being a housewife. Huh? Labo. Sudden change of preference. I really want to be there when my husband arrives, cook meals for him…Ugh…I am so weird. But now, with the economic kiyemes I know that I can’t because we need to help each other out financially. I discussed to him an option, to do a homebased work. Waaaahhhh…Problem is I don’t have any idea what job would take me. Got any?
